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I've gained 36 pounds and I'm 23 weeks pregnant. . . . . .
I'm at 191 lbs.
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Seriously? It kind of really upsets me.

I have to go in for a gestational diabetes test within the next month.

I know my mom gained 80 lbs when she was pregnant with me, but still! It does not make me happy. And I'm trying to stay positive because it's a good thing to gain weight when you're pregnant, but there are soo many pregnancy books/advice that says that normal pregnancy you should gain 25 - 35 lbs.

Well I hit 35 lbs, but I'm sure I'll gain more.

Ugh, frustrating. I need to blog to get it out and get over it, but I feel that this post is just so empty. Trust me, it's not. For every space between sentences I've let out a sigh of frustration or my mind is focusing more on being frustrated then completing sentences.



My dear husband, I feel so bad for him. He doesn't know what to say. I've been putting him in awkward situations by asking him if I look like I've gained that much or if it looks awful. Of course he says that it doesn't look like it and that I look great. He even recommended that I wear a 2 piece lifeguard suit for my when I have to teach my classes in March (in March I'll be 7 months pregnant. I took a 23 week pregnancy picture that I'll post soon. I really don't think I look that big, but I am! 191!

I think I'm totally having a mood swing right now. I'm sure tomorrow I'll be okay. Plus I'll be going to work and that's when I go on hikes which is the ONLY form of exercise that I've been doing since I've been pregnant. And just a brief pre-pregnancy exercise history: I worked out 5-3 times a week, a full 1 1/2 of cardio, abs every day and strength training.