hallelujah!

God is good! I thought we were going to over draft our account this week before pay day on Friday. Which would stink because I withdrew some from savings earlier this month to make me feel better about the order in which some of our bills were being pay. So to make up for what I took out of savings I put back in an extra $50 on top of what I took out. So now here i was last night balancing the book and my huge student loan was coming up on Thursday and our tithe check still needed to go through. So I thought we were going to be short like $50 and then Trav called me on the way to work this morning and let me know he HAD to get gas! So we'd be like $90!!

BUT!!! I just checked our account and forgot that I only tithed $50 this past week rather than 150 which was what I was thinking. SO WE'RE GOOD!

GOD IS GOOD AND IT IS ALL HIS MONEY!

Yay! Happy Wednesday!

25 weeks

23 weeks


I'm 25 weeks and like 4 days! Wow! I'm pretty sure I've said this before, but the time is flying!! This past Monday I started working on his room. I moved most of Trav's clothes out of Junior's closet and into our closet. By next Monday I hope to have the clothes transfer complete and Junior's closet cleaned out a little more. I didn't realize we used it so much for storage!

I've decided that my baby shower will be March 27th. Krissy will be hosting it. I don't want more than one. Trav's mom has said she wanted to throw me one and then Donna said she wanted to have one for the bible study group... Ladies, as much as I am flattered, I would appreciate it more if everyone came to my one big one. Yay!
We'll see what future drama unfolds!!

I took a quick trip to Ft. Myers to visit Kristin and I took Krissy. We had a lot of fun and I hope to see a few pics from that night soon.

Not much else is going on. Just starting to get ready for lifeguards at work!! I still think I'm going to opt out of the bathing suit this year. My legs are starting to get dimply. yuck.

I'll post more at another date, I'm way behind on my bible study homework, daily Walk with God, and Baby Registry!

25 weeks!

A new day & a new mood!

I knew it was just a mood swing! I woke up this morning and feel great. I slept hard lastnight.
I'm determined to go on atleast a few hikes a day when I'm at work. Not only does it give me great exercise, but it makes me feel really good being outdoors!


"When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer" - Psalm 94:19

36

I've gained 36 pounds and I'm 23 weeks pregnant. . . . . .
I'm at 191 lbs.
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Seriously? It kind of really upsets me.

I have to go in for a gestational diabetes test within the next month.

I know my mom gained 80 lbs when she was pregnant with me, but still! It does not make me happy. And I'm trying to stay positive because it's a good thing to gain weight when you're pregnant, but there are soo many pregnancy books/advice that says that normal pregnancy you should gain 25 - 35 lbs.

Well I hit 35 lbs, but I'm sure I'll gain more.

Ugh, frustrating. I need to blog to get it out and get over it, but I feel that this post is just so empty. Trust me, it's not. For every space between sentences I've let out a sigh of frustration or my mind is focusing more on being frustrated then completing sentences.



My dear husband, I feel so bad for him. He doesn't know what to say. I've been putting him in awkward situations by asking him if I look like I've gained that much or if it looks awful. Of course he says that it doesn't look like it and that I look great. He even recommended that I wear a 2 piece lifeguard suit for my when I have to teach my classes in March (in March I'll be 7 months pregnant. I took a 23 week pregnancy picture that I'll post soon. I really don't think I look that big, but I am! 191!

I think I'm totally having a mood swing right now. I'm sure tomorrow I'll be okay. Plus I'll be going to work and that's when I go on hikes which is the ONLY form of exercise that I've been doing since I've been pregnant. And just a brief pre-pregnancy exercise history: I worked out 5-3 times a week, a full 1 1/2 of cardio, abs every day and strength training.

Resolution #1 Truly knowing God

So I thought I should post a quick little blog about how I'm trying to find a deeper relationship and fullfillment with God.

Since switching my schedule around for work, I've been able to attend church on Sunday and it's amazing. I cry at least 2 services a month maybe all of them sometimes! I really love going on Sundays and hearing a sermon and everyone singing.

I just started a new ladie's bible study group called, "Becoming More Than A Good Bible Study Girl" by Lysa Terkeurst. We had our first class last night and I really didn't get it too much because it was the introduction. But the ladies that are in it are amazing! It such a good group of church friends. And we welcomed a girl named Stephanie who had just signed a contract with our Pastor saying that she is a Child of God now. How amazing is that! Anyway, so I just did our first days homework for the bible study and WOW! It is a great ready and really hits home. It talks about wanting fullfillment and acceptance in other people, things, positions, etc.. You can only feel true fullfillment with God. Lysa relfects on the tradgedies in her life, father abandonment, sexual abuse from a grandfather figure, parental divorce, not feeling pretty enough, etc... It's REALLY GOOD and I'm excited about this 6 week session.

I also started to read the One Year Devotional -Daily Walk with God. I've fallen behind a few days but caught back up quickly and I want to make sure that I stay on track and finish the year!

I feel very spiritual right now and I like. It makes me feel good. It gives me confidence to talk to God when I read about Him and His Word.

I'm excited about my spiritual journey and growth and I'll keep the blog updated on how it's going.

Love this blog

I love this blog that I found through somebody who found the through somebody. It's a family of 7 that are living in an RV across America and homeschooling their kids. The first blog of theirs I read HERE and I'm instantly addicted.
Great sayings and thoughts like these:
Never explain: your friends don't require it, and your enemies won't believe you anyway.
Those who gossip to you gossip about you.

I'm definitely going to keep reading.

Blog anonymity

I wonder if sometimes I should tell people I know that I blog. That way they can read my blog and really keep tabs on me. Ya know, like family and close friends. But then I quickly remember that if I give out my blog address then they WILL read it and then I'll feel like I'll have to watch what I say, so then this blog isn't really the release that I want it to be. I wonder if other bloggers feel the same way or do they let their friends and family know their blog? I guess it all might depend on the purpose of an individuals blog, is it to inform family and friends of what's going on or can it be a place to write down things before they become public-emotional-outbursts!

Old friends on my mind

I feel like I don't have many CLOSE friends. And when I write 'CLOSE', I mean 'CLOSE'.. ya know? I'm on facebook and an old friend of mine found me on there. I high school there were 3 of us. "N", "S", and me... we came up to college together, lived together, and partied together. We had crazy times and even crazier times. Things went sour with N when we thought she was into drugs and anorexia. S really made it hard on her and was down right mean to N. I didn't say much about it all besides that fact that if she was on drugs and not eating that needed to stop. So need less to say we stopped talking to N and N moved out of the apt that her and S were living in.

After N was gone S and I became closer friends for the next 2 years. Both doing crazy things, but then I met a boy (my darling husband) and I sort of calmed down. She had a boy and they got engaged, but then she started cheating on him and then rotating the boys every other weekend. Now that's CRAZY. One night me and S had a awful falling out, a physical fighting one. It was bad and it all started with a shove and an attempted slap. Well S moved out of our condo right away and I never spoke to her again.

I like to blame all of this on just being young, stupid, and intoxicated most of the time.

Well N was the one that found me on facebook, I was excited to see that she was doing well. So I sent her a message and asked her how she was. I have yet to get a response to that message..........

It got me thinking that our lives have changed SO much and that we've grown up and how stupid it is that S and I refuse to talk to one another and it's been 3 years since the 'fight incident'. So I sent her a message on facebook even though we're not friends on it. And I still haven't heard back, it's been 2 days now....

It was so hard to let go of S and I's friendship. I missed it so much. We did so much together and experienced a lot together it was just weird not having her around. She was suppose to be my Maid of Honor at my wedding and I hers, but obviously she wasn't mine and I don't plan on being hers. I really had a hard time forgiving her and myself for that night. It wasn't until recently when I gave it all to God to heal and forgave her.

So for the past two days I have been thinking about whether or not they've written me back. It doesn't consume my day, but when I'm at work I check my email at least 4 times a day to see if I've gotten any 'happenings' on facebook.

My hubby said he's proud of me for writing the message to S. It actually made me feel a little better. At least I'll know for sure if she never wants to talk to me again. And as for N, she friended me and she can't respond to a message... wtf?

I guess only time will tell. Every thing happens for a reason, right God? He's got the game plan and we're all just the players.