+1 over due!

So TJ's due date has passed just as quietly as it arrived. Besides his normal bouncy self, nothing exciting happened nor am I really expecting it to. We had a Dr's appointment on Thursday and I wasn't even dialated at all yet. The doctor said she'll induce me on Monday! That means today and tomorrow I'll be by myself and then I will no longer be a 'non-parent'! Crazy to think that. I'm definitely ready.

The doctor said he's a big baby. I'm guessing 9lbs. Trav thinks like 8.12 or something. The Dr. said she would insert tablets into my cervix to soften it up in hopes of it starting to dialate. I'm kind of nervous because everyone says I could stay there over night on Monday and still not have a baby! What a loooong delivery!

But I'm still excited :)Mom will be up here tomorrow night and will be up here for atleast 7-10 days to help me. That will be nice.

I woke up this morning to eat some cereal with Trav on the front porch. He had to work today, but I wanted to spend as much time with him; just the two of us before there's the 3 of us.

I pray that all goes well and I'm forever thankful to God for this blessing. For all the ups and downs and for His miracle and gift that he's given Travis and I.

38 weeks and 4 days

We had a Dr's appointment today. They checked me and I haven't started to dialate yet but she said my cervix was beginning to thin. She confirmed around 7.5 lbs of baby. His back is up against the left side of my tummy and he's still face down and just start to come down into the canal. His heartbeat is great. And she said that he will be able to fit through my pelvis.

So now we wait... which is extremely difficult for me. I'm ready for him to come out. Can't he tell? I just want to hold him. And I want to be his mommy for mother's day :) I'll continue to tell him to come out and that I love him; hopefully he'll listen and come very soon. Our next Dr's appointment is May 6th, the day before his due date.

For now, tomorrow I return to work and work my last day will be on Sunday. Come on TJ, mommy and daddy are ready to meet you!

37 weeks picture

Here is my latest belly picture taken a week ago. :)

11 days to go...

Wow, 11 days until Jr's due date. I totally feel ready physically. I've gotten to the point that I can't sleep good anymore because of how solid my belly is and my feet have permanently swollen up the past few days. I've been keeping track of every weird thing that happens thinking that it might be signs of true labor... but it hasn't been.

I think everything is ready:
-Nursery
-Washed clothes/towels
-Washed bottles
-Hospital Bag
-Diaper Bag
-Car Seat installed
-House is as clean as it's going to get considering my physical ability
-I even switched watches to my digital one to keep track of time better ;)

My last day of work is May 2nd. I go into work Wednesday to work 50 hours in the next 5 days. I'm kind of nervous about that. Yesterday while leaving church I had severe shooting pains in my pelvis that kind of took my breath away and I coudln't speak. I just held on to Trav and we stood still until it passed, whiched seemed like forever! I was trying to figure out if it was a Braxton Hicks, but I couldn't tell if my stomach was hardening because Jr feels soo big that it feels hard all the time.

I sure hope I'm a Mom on Mother's Day this year. That would be very special :)

Today: 36 weeks and 3 days

It's been quite awhile since I last posted. Work has begun to pickup for the lifeguard season and when I'm not at work, I'm either working on TJ's room, cleaning the house, or we're spending time with friends and family before the little guy gets here.

On the 27th of March, I had my baby shower. My best friends hosted it, it was beautiful and a lot of fun! There was about 30 people there! We got everything we need!! I still need to go out and get diapers, but we have plenty of clothes, towels, sheets, blankies, bottles, everything! :)

I'm starting to REALLY NOTICE being pregnant. It's hard to explain. I've always noticed my belly and TJ's little kicks, but now my belly is uncomfortably big... TJ streches and kicks hard, my feet swell off and on, my legs feel the extra weight, and the Braxton-Hicks contractions are really starting to get a little more serious and more frequent through out the week.

Travis is starting to get a little mad at me because I've been on my feet so much at work and then coming home and nesting like crazy. He thinks I need to rest more, which I wouldn't mind at all, BUT the stuff HAS to be done before our little man gets here :)

I thought that the countdown began at 30 weeks... but I think the countdown really begins at 35 weeks! It's all just a waiting game now. We have a Dr's appointment on the 19th and an ultrasound on the 22nd.

Here are a few pics of my belly from the baby shower which was now like 3 weeks ago! So you can only imgaine how much bigger it got! :)

34 weeks


Travis touched the belly with cold hands like he always tries to do!


Me & my mom put the crib together :)

Hey Baby, you still in there?

I'm 29 weeks and 2 days preggo- Friday will be 30 weeks! Wow! My next Dr's appointment is 2 Tuesdays from now. I can't wait! They've got to be getting more interesting since I'm getting further along.

I feel like nothing has been going on but yet I've been through a lot since my last half-a$$ post. Looking back on that post it's not as detailed and exciting as I remember wanting to write about. Oh well.

We've still been working on the baby room. My mom and I painted the dresser. I put some of his clothes away, even though I'll still need to wash them. I've been reading more and more about our son and what's to expect with raising him, breastfeeding, and the rest of the pregnancy. I really want to do a natural delivery. With that said I mean vaginal and zero to minimal pain-medication. But as soon as the Dr says that it's better another way, then I'll do what she says. I just want our son to be healthy and for me to be as well.

I felt like I had a semi-overwhelming breakdown the other day. Everything just accumulated (along with my last trimester hormones!) and I had to have a cry! I was thinking about my overload of work at the job, how big I'm getting, how much more stuff we have to do in Junior's room, how tight our money is right now, and my two babysitters that I was kind of counting on in the fall fell through. Both for good reasons, one is pregnant and the other is doing a full-time internship to graduate. So thinking about actually finding a daycare to take my 2 month old to is completely awful to think about right now. :( But like my wonderful husband told me as I was crying like a baby on the phone "It's in God's hands because He knows the plans. It's meant to be the way it's going to be." I love my husband.

On to exciting news... My in-laws bought us a new bed!!! A new bed!! What an amazing present! That's what T and I have been trying to save for but had no such luck. His mom kept on insisting that she wanted to buy us this bed so that we'd sleep better at night and be well rested for the baby. She was getting upset because we kept turning her down with a No thanks. Well she went looking without us and narrowed it down to 2 and was going to get one for us whether we went and tried it or not. So T went and looked at it with her. Tonight will be the first night it's home and I can't wait to feel how comfy it is! His mom is a very Godly and caring person, i love her.

And the last exciting news is that we filed our taxes!! We should see the money within a week or two! Woop woop! Our first year filing together and WOW! It's nice being married, thank you Uncle Sam! We hope to pay off our furniture and one of my debts with it and still have enough left over for a little cushion in our checking and a chunk in our savings! Praise the Lord for He is good!

That is all of the recap for now. I'll post later about the new bed an any other exciting-ness that happens. :)

GLOW!

I feel the glow! I mean I really feel like I'm glowing!! Last night Trav put together the crib and today I worked on the room more and my mom also came up! I'm just glowing. It's as simple and amazing as that! Here are some recent pictures :)

No G. Diabetes!!

Had our Dr's apointment yesterday and what a great one it was! I only gained 2 lbs, my Gestational Diabetes test came back negative, and Travie's heartbeat is great!
I was so happy!!! Praise and thank God!

Trav started working on making the shelving around his room. We picked up the crib which was on sale (-$20) and got a $40 mattress for free!! We'll put that up when the shelving is done.

Everything is coming together now! He's coming and we're blowing throw money like we poop gold in the morning!

I can't thank God enough right now. He is amazing. He is the Provider, the Healer, the Maker, and Hope! Amen to Him!



Other news:
On Sunday we had a limo parked in our front lawn for the whole day. Which was interesting... I wish he would have offered a free ride or something! :)

hallelujah!

God is good! I thought we were going to over draft our account this week before pay day on Friday. Which would stink because I withdrew some from savings earlier this month to make me feel better about the order in which some of our bills were being pay. So to make up for what I took out of savings I put back in an extra $50 on top of what I took out. So now here i was last night balancing the book and my huge student loan was coming up on Thursday and our tithe check still needed to go through. So I thought we were going to be short like $50 and then Trav called me on the way to work this morning and let me know he HAD to get gas! So we'd be like $90!!

BUT!!! I just checked our account and forgot that I only tithed $50 this past week rather than 150 which was what I was thinking. SO WE'RE GOOD!

GOD IS GOOD AND IT IS ALL HIS MONEY!

Yay! Happy Wednesday!

25 weeks

23 weeks


I'm 25 weeks and like 4 days! Wow! I'm pretty sure I've said this before, but the time is flying!! This past Monday I started working on his room. I moved most of Trav's clothes out of Junior's closet and into our closet. By next Monday I hope to have the clothes transfer complete and Junior's closet cleaned out a little more. I didn't realize we used it so much for storage!

I've decided that my baby shower will be March 27th. Krissy will be hosting it. I don't want more than one. Trav's mom has said she wanted to throw me one and then Donna said she wanted to have one for the bible study group... Ladies, as much as I am flattered, I would appreciate it more if everyone came to my one big one. Yay!
We'll see what future drama unfolds!!

I took a quick trip to Ft. Myers to visit Kristin and I took Krissy. We had a lot of fun and I hope to see a few pics from that night soon.

Not much else is going on. Just starting to get ready for lifeguards at work!! I still think I'm going to opt out of the bathing suit this year. My legs are starting to get dimply. yuck.

I'll post more at another date, I'm way behind on my bible study homework, daily Walk with God, and Baby Registry!

25 weeks!

A new day & a new mood!

I knew it was just a mood swing! I woke up this morning and feel great. I slept hard lastnight.
I'm determined to go on atleast a few hikes a day when I'm at work. Not only does it give me great exercise, but it makes me feel really good being outdoors!


"When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer" - Psalm 94:19

36

I've gained 36 pounds and I'm 23 weeks pregnant. . . . . .
I'm at 191 lbs.
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Seriously? It kind of really upsets me.

I have to go in for a gestational diabetes test within the next month.

I know my mom gained 80 lbs when she was pregnant with me, but still! It does not make me happy. And I'm trying to stay positive because it's a good thing to gain weight when you're pregnant, but there are soo many pregnancy books/advice that says that normal pregnancy you should gain 25 - 35 lbs.

Well I hit 35 lbs, but I'm sure I'll gain more.

Ugh, frustrating. I need to blog to get it out and get over it, but I feel that this post is just so empty. Trust me, it's not. For every space between sentences I've let out a sigh of frustration or my mind is focusing more on being frustrated then completing sentences.



My dear husband, I feel so bad for him. He doesn't know what to say. I've been putting him in awkward situations by asking him if I look like I've gained that much or if it looks awful. Of course he says that it doesn't look like it and that I look great. He even recommended that I wear a 2 piece lifeguard suit for my when I have to teach my classes in March (in March I'll be 7 months pregnant. I took a 23 week pregnancy picture that I'll post soon. I really don't think I look that big, but I am! 191!

I think I'm totally having a mood swing right now. I'm sure tomorrow I'll be okay. Plus I'll be going to work and that's when I go on hikes which is the ONLY form of exercise that I've been doing since I've been pregnant. And just a brief pre-pregnancy exercise history: I worked out 5-3 times a week, a full 1 1/2 of cardio, abs every day and strength training.

Resolution #1 Truly knowing God

So I thought I should post a quick little blog about how I'm trying to find a deeper relationship and fullfillment with God.

Since switching my schedule around for work, I've been able to attend church on Sunday and it's amazing. I cry at least 2 services a month maybe all of them sometimes! I really love going on Sundays and hearing a sermon and everyone singing.

I just started a new ladie's bible study group called, "Becoming More Than A Good Bible Study Girl" by Lysa Terkeurst. We had our first class last night and I really didn't get it too much because it was the introduction. But the ladies that are in it are amazing! It such a good group of church friends. And we welcomed a girl named Stephanie who had just signed a contract with our Pastor saying that she is a Child of God now. How amazing is that! Anyway, so I just did our first days homework for the bible study and WOW! It is a great ready and really hits home. It talks about wanting fullfillment and acceptance in other people, things, positions, etc.. You can only feel true fullfillment with God. Lysa relfects on the tradgedies in her life, father abandonment, sexual abuse from a grandfather figure, parental divorce, not feeling pretty enough, etc... It's REALLY GOOD and I'm excited about this 6 week session.

I also started to read the One Year Devotional -Daily Walk with God. I've fallen behind a few days but caught back up quickly and I want to make sure that I stay on track and finish the year!

I feel very spiritual right now and I like. It makes me feel good. It gives me confidence to talk to God when I read about Him and His Word.

I'm excited about my spiritual journey and growth and I'll keep the blog updated on how it's going.

Love this blog

I love this blog that I found through somebody who found the through somebody. It's a family of 7 that are living in an RV across America and homeschooling their kids. The first blog of theirs I read HERE and I'm instantly addicted.
Great sayings and thoughts like these:
Never explain: your friends don't require it, and your enemies won't believe you anyway.
Those who gossip to you gossip about you.

I'm definitely going to keep reading.

Blog anonymity

I wonder if sometimes I should tell people I know that I blog. That way they can read my blog and really keep tabs on me. Ya know, like family and close friends. But then I quickly remember that if I give out my blog address then they WILL read it and then I'll feel like I'll have to watch what I say, so then this blog isn't really the release that I want it to be. I wonder if other bloggers feel the same way or do they let their friends and family know their blog? I guess it all might depend on the purpose of an individuals blog, is it to inform family and friends of what's going on or can it be a place to write down things before they become public-emotional-outbursts!

Old friends on my mind

I feel like I don't have many CLOSE friends. And when I write 'CLOSE', I mean 'CLOSE'.. ya know? I'm on facebook and an old friend of mine found me on there. I high school there were 3 of us. "N", "S", and me... we came up to college together, lived together, and partied together. We had crazy times and even crazier times. Things went sour with N when we thought she was into drugs and anorexia. S really made it hard on her and was down right mean to N. I didn't say much about it all besides that fact that if she was on drugs and not eating that needed to stop. So need less to say we stopped talking to N and N moved out of the apt that her and S were living in.

After N was gone S and I became closer friends for the next 2 years. Both doing crazy things, but then I met a boy (my darling husband) and I sort of calmed down. She had a boy and they got engaged, but then she started cheating on him and then rotating the boys every other weekend. Now that's CRAZY. One night me and S had a awful falling out, a physical fighting one. It was bad and it all started with a shove and an attempted slap. Well S moved out of our condo right away and I never spoke to her again.

I like to blame all of this on just being young, stupid, and intoxicated most of the time.

Well N was the one that found me on facebook, I was excited to see that she was doing well. So I sent her a message and asked her how she was. I have yet to get a response to that message..........

It got me thinking that our lives have changed SO much and that we've grown up and how stupid it is that S and I refuse to talk to one another and it's been 3 years since the 'fight incident'. So I sent her a message on facebook even though we're not friends on it. And I still haven't heard back, it's been 2 days now....

It was so hard to let go of S and I's friendship. I missed it so much. We did so much together and experienced a lot together it was just weird not having her around. She was suppose to be my Maid of Honor at my wedding and I hers, but obviously she wasn't mine and I don't plan on being hers. I really had a hard time forgiving her and myself for that night. It wasn't until recently when I gave it all to God to heal and forgave her.

So for the past two days I have been thinking about whether or not they've written me back. It doesn't consume my day, but when I'm at work I check my email at least 4 times a day to see if I've gotten any 'happenings' on facebook.

My hubby said he's proud of me for writing the message to S. It actually made me feel a little better. At least I'll know for sure if she never wants to talk to me again. And as for N, she friended me and she can't respond to a message... wtf?

I guess only time will tell. Every thing happens for a reason, right God? He's got the game plan and we're all just the players.